Friday, March 27, 2009

A time of letting go....... continued

Well, it's been a whole month since my post about Lent being "a time of letting go".

So far, it has indeed been a time of "letting go" for me. Here's a list so far:

  • My adult son has moved out of my house, and become financially independent of me! So, I've let go of the need to "mother" him. Now, he has actually had me over to his house that he shares with 2 other guys, and they MADE DINNER FOR ME! What a joy!

  • I have a lifelong "survival skill" that has become quite a liability for me. That skill is turning my anger inward. Last week I realized that holding onto that coping mechanism is causing me WAY too much pain. I wrote a "thank you and good-bye" letter to that way of handling anger. So, I've let it go, and now I'm taking baby steps toward finding a healthier way that works for me. It's time!

  • After almost 3 years of working a 12-step program to help me stop eating compulsively, I've finally admitted that, yes, foods made with white flour are like poison to me. So, I'm letting go of those foods, with God's help......... I know I can't do it with willpower alone..... one day at a time.

All of this letting go is making room for a sense of joy in living, and I am so grateful today!

1 comment:

Ruth said...

Change is very difficult, but recognizing our need for change and taking small steps toward it do make a difference. God will continue to help you stay in that place of joy. I too know that refined wheat and sugar are addictive and like a drug in my system. I feel so much better when I avoid them.