Sunday, April 25, 2010

Doing small things with great love

Just for today, I'm going to try being kind to myself.

Hallmark makes a set of post-it-notes called "Faith Notes... 100 Heavenly
Ways to Say "I Care". I've had one on my bathroom mirror for a while now. It says "Every day we are called to small things with great love." -- Mother Teresa.

I've been reading that for weeks, trying to embody that in my actions towards others. All of a sudden, this morning, I realized that I first need to treat myself that way, too.

So, with love, I'm off to pour myself a cup of coffee.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Falling apart?

Oh, dear..... what a week it has been!

I must have been going on adrenaline during tax season. Now my body is telling me off!

I knew during the season that my back was hurting more and more as I sat through two jobs.
Now, my back is so much worse! And, here I wait for the result of X-rays to see what's next.

Then, last night my knee popped in a not-so-funny way, and IT hurts as I sit, and sometimes leaves me hobbling when I start walking. Wow.

What am I learning from all of this?

Be gentle with myself?
Learn to see the humor? (Getting grumpy about it just makes it worse!) I never have liked being grumpy. :~)

Ah, I remember my sister saying life begins at 50........... I hope it doesn't just fall apart at 51!
Only kidding, I know that this, too, shall pass.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Finally out of the tax season fog

Finally, finally, April 15 has come and gone. I worked in a tax return office this season, in addition to my full-time job. It took every bit of my energy to get through those 3 1/2 months! Will I do it again next year? How do I answer that question?

Can I use the money? That's a resounding YES.
Can I afford to put my body, mind, and spirit through the paces again?

My body --- I have developed an aching back from, I think, sitting all day and then again all evening.

My mind --- well, I think it did me good to learn all that I learned.

My spirit --- well, taxes are just plain TAXING on the spirit. There were some days, yes, when
I felt like I was really HELPING people through a tough time, and on those days I
left feeling uplifted. More often, though, I was just ready to go home.

One thing I've learned lately is that there are ALWAYS choices. Sure, money is an on-going issue in my life, as it has been ever since my ex decided, over 6 years ago, that he wanted his sweet-thing on the side more than he wanted our marriage and family. Sometimes I get so angry when I think about that............ (that's when I need Roberta's latest post over at Spiritually Directed!)........ but I soon slap myself on the head and remind myself that in every other way, I am SO much better off since the divorce!

Well, here I am up WAY too late. I've missed the blog-world!

Oh, and getting back to blogging isn't the only thing I've accomplished today. I also spent HOURS starting to get my yard back into shape, or at least I almost have it mowed, anyway! :~)